I finally found Him

I know I've reached a new level in Christ and this is how I know it can't be anyone but Him. I use to always wonder, well maybe if I move here or go there because God said do it this is where I will meet "him", or maybe if I act a bit more "fun" or wear this dress I'll grab the "right ones" attention. Until one day I woke up and realized I had already met "Him" and he's been here all along.

This wasn't a stage I made it to overnight, good Lord No. This was a processes, a stripping down to the real me if you will, and it wasn't easy nor is it over but what I can say is this. Now when I pray and wake up each morning knowing things are changing my focus is, "where are WE going next to fulfill your purpose in my life"? Whoever comes along the way or has to be dropped off along the way, so be it. Surrendering my all to Christ wasn't easy all the time...at least for a controlling person like myself it wasn't lol. But now that I've done it I wonder why I ever waited so long to FINALLY get here. I can breath again. Space in my head isn't being filled with unnecessary thinking of people and things that just didn't mean me any good.

See, like a fool in the past I surrendered; all too free and willingly; my peace, love, and joy to all the wrong "men" expecting something in return only to end up emptier than I ever imagined. Now, I can finally say, I have surrendered everything to someone that has taken all my cares, fears, anxieties and in return has given me peace, love, joy, and success and I think I'd rather have that any day.

I came across this post in instagram earlier today. If you don't follow her please go follow her NOW. You'll be happy you did. I can't help but think about how true these words are. The truth really does hurt and can be a weighty load to bear at times, but it also is also so beautifully freeing. I'd rather be hurt with the truth than falsely happy with a lie. Whoever said "ignorance is bliss" LIED!

So he did you wrong? Yea me too. So you thought he was the one? Yea me too, but there are plenty fish in the sea...trust me...you still got it :) just do me a favor next time you have the same thoughts/feelings about someone check your motives first and make sure their in line with what God is telling you. You'll save yourself many sleepless and tearful nights in the end.

You don't have to go to him with eloquent words or a long speech, just be yourself because he already knows you way better than you know yourself. My heart swells just thinking about how imperfect I am yet how great he sees me. So while he knows us far greater than we will ever know ourselves, ask to see the "heart" of man because it's their where you see their true character. Trust me God will show you, but it's your choice to accept it and either stay or walk away.

“keep and guard your heart with all vigilance and above all that you guard, for out of it flow the springs of life” Proverbs 4:23

So what are you waiting on? Better yet WHO are you waiting on? Don't surrender to the wrong one, because you'll end up empty every time.

Be Confident

So you broke up with your boyfriend and your feelings are hurt? So you gave more than you got? So you loved unconditionally and got conditions thrown at you left and right? Well I'm here to tell you, sometimes the best relationships are the ones you break up from. Any relationship where you felt less than, where you couldn't be yourself no matter how much you tried, where you changed to fit his idea of what a woman should be, and any relationship where you're peace was broken from day one simply IS NOT WORTH IT!

That saying, "time heals all wounds" is true, but trust me from experience sometimes that time seems more like a lifetime of pain than a moment of pain. So pick up the pieces, dust yourself off, get your "happy" back, because another one will come and this time your unconditional may match his.

But do yourself a favor in the meantime, spend some time alone and get to know yourself, you may be surprised how strong you are, how brave you are, how smart you are, and that "being too nice" may come in your favor one day :). Sometimes we hop in and out of relationship's to run away from the hurt when the only one we're really hurting is ourselves. So stop walking around with open wounds expecting another man to administer surgery on those gashes, instead, do your own mending and healing, and STOP thinking about ALL the time you gave to that man that didn't deserve a second. 

Be Confident in who you are, whose you are, and what you want!

Below is a poem from someone I follow on instagram Just Mike...his words have hit home to me in MANY ways, and if you don't have one of his books (Just Words 1&2) then you're really missing out!! Let this resonate with you today...

xoxo ~Nell

Todays post is for that one that's hurting inside and doesn't know if the sun will ever rise again. Just know you're not the only one...these words are as much for myself as they are for you. So sit back, grow in loving yourself again, your time will come.

Are you dealing with a recent breakup or one that you just can't seem to get over?